Farewell guys

[Galeandra]

Hey everyone,nnI'm planning on changing servers and trying out a new home.nnI would like to thank everyone for all the opportunities you've given me and for giving me another chance to be UC for Nyx.nnI'm sorry it had to come to this but I feel it'll be better for all of you and for me that I finally depart.nnTake care and good luck. I shall miss you all.nn~ Galeandra signing off.

[Izazel]

Bye Gale I hope everything works out for you.

[Thomasbecket]

Better for all of us? Bollocks. What?

[Eyesore]

Hey Gal, before you click those buttons and spend your coin, how about taking a couple days to think it over? You have invested a lot here, and would be missed.nnEyesore

[Locomono]

Gale! Loco is a hunter! Don't you forget! I will find you! And I will hit you with a tranquilizing shot, tie you on the back of Broka's hog and put you in a cage in Icecrown. Where you will be forced to watch Sneigh attempt to gank Nyx lowbies trying to releas Kul EVERYDAY! *points finger and snorts*

[Myyah]

*Myyah's face turns darker, her brow furrowed*nnGaleandra, I thought this ground had been covered once before. I am going to be blunt, why do you continue to hurt your friends' feelings by leaving abruptly, with no adequate explanations? nn*crosses her arms and stares directly into Galeandra's eyes, awaiting a real answer*

[Galeandra]

Myyah, I'm going to be honest with you and I'll do my best to say what I'm about to say with the highest regard for my friends and for Nyx.nnThe first time I left, it was simply because Nyx was a new guild to me and I was overwhelmed because I was thrown into the middle of some drama with members who are no longer with us. At the time, everything was new to me, everyone was unfamiliar. So I needed to step back and rethink my decision in being with Nyx in the first place. During that time, I became close to Lah and we started seeing one another as brother and sister. After a few months, I was brought back with open arms.nnThe second time I left, it was due to RL issues overwhelming me and I let it get to me so much that I QQed to many members of the guild and with the officers. Yes, this could have been prevented but it happened and I can't go back to change that fact. So a lot of bridges were burned as a result. It's natural for many to be pissed at me for that. But I realized my mistakes and kindly ask Warburn if he would allow me to come home.nnBut the bridges have already been burnt. Many were still upset with me and I knew it would take many months before I'm even considered likable again by some. Yes, I did what I could. I came back with a smile and as much as I was slapped in the face, I kept smiling because I wanted to put the past behind me and move on. I wanted to have fun again.nnFor a time, things were going great. However, things started to turn for a worse when I became UC again. I'm not going to go into details about that out of respect for the officers but basically my presence as UC only worsened the situation because of how I am. I'm the sort who loves to help others. I also believe in open communication. However, that resulted in me overstepping my grounds according to policy. Personally, it was with good intentions and simply because I cared for Nyx and for all the officers. I just wanted to voice my feelings in hopes of helping everyone improve as a whole. Basically I presented my opinion and if others disagreed, they disagree. If they agree, they agree. It was up to them to decide. But, again, I must have come out rather blunt (I guess I'm not good at being tactful) and it brought more anger rather than an understanding that I was just trying to help like any friend would.nnSo, all in all, that brought a lot of tension and, to be frank, every move I made was being watched and I was getting a lot of lecturing for even the smallest things. Again, this isn't their fault. It's understandable that this would happen due to the actions I took earlier. But this did start to stifle me and it really started to take the fun out of playing because I started to get worried about everything I did to the point where my only choice of action was to stop talking. Even asking a simple question in raids lead to harsh lecturing.nnSo I was left with two options. Stay in Nyx and deal with being watched and ridiculed for all my actions for months on end until things finally cool down or leave for good. Myyah, I just have too much to deal with in RL to be walking on broken glass when playing. WoW is my chance to enjoy life and relax. You and I both know how important that is especially after all the stress RL can provide. How can I relax in game when I have to be careful even when saying a simple thing as hi? How can I enjoy raiding if I get shut down the moment I say anything? It's just not possible.nnSo I decided to leave. But because of this action, the doors are now slammed shut, so coming back to Nyx is now an impossibility (according to the rules which even I advocate). How can I stay in Emerald Dream only to be reminded of what I miss and will never see again? How can I stay when those I loved as friends now ignore me because of the actions I took? You know how unusual that feels? I don't want to feel that when I'm playing. I want to enjoy the game not throw a pity party! I'm sure you understand.nnSo yes, Galeandra now no longer exists on Emerald Dream. It was the only way to make peace and move on. I lost a lot. I lost my sister, I lost my friends, I lost Nyx. But this was bound to happen because of the actions I took before I left the second time. I was naive to think people would forgive and forget when I came back that time. As I said, I burned a lot of bridges and started to feel the consequences the moment I came back. This is definitely something I can't deal with for months to make up for it (having to do 1000 deeds to correct 1 should only be applied in real life, NOT in game). Like I said, I have enough crap in RL to deal with.nnSo I made this decision because I felt it would be better for all of you that I'm not present anymore. I'm tired of causing shitstorms that I never intended to start and I'm sure many will be relieved to not have to spend time resolving these shitstorms. This decision is also better for me because I can have a fresh start and just be myself and not have to worry about every damn thing while playing the game.nnI just want everyone to be happy again, including myself.nnRemember though, this isn't anyone's fault. I just didn't fit in because of my personality and for the actions I took which only contradicted the purpose of this guild. There's no one to blame except myself but I realized that I can't blame myself for I am who I am. I just had to come to grips that being me wasn't helping the guild.nnAnyway, I love all you guys. I'll miss you all so much - I already do!! But all good things have to come to an end at some point and it was my time to go.nnI'm sorry for leaving abruptly, I just hate long goodbyes -.-nn~ Galeandra